No, I’m not a donor!

A post on Facebook the other day showed a picture of a beautiful brunette with a stunning smile. The text said: ‘She waited for a donor heart for 4 years. Now she’s dead. Are you a donor yet?’ Wow. I felt instantly guilty, as if I were responsible for her death, … Read more

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The Downward Path – How low can you go?

What if we got it all wrong? What if the spiritual path is not upward, but downward? What if the ultimate goal is not to finally open Sahasrara, but to finally open Muladhara, once you’ve mastered the 6 stages before? What if the first stage of our spiritual development is … Read more

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Kind Anger – How my sister, my son, my boyfriend and ayahuasca helped me to let go of anger

I’ve been angry all my life. Until recently. It started with being angry at my father for not loving my mother. One day he smashed my baby sister’s milk bottle against the wall, loudly shaming my mother for not being able to breastfeed her. My mother was protecting my sister by pulling her tightly to […]

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Ayahuasca – the Return of the Mothers

  She looked like a female version of Yoda, old and wrinkled. She sat cross legged on a blanket, her back upright and fierce. In her ancient face I saw both the grief of generations and the playfulness of a little girl. She was absently eating sunflower seeds, spitting out … Read more

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Ayahuasca – when the veil between life and death is lifted

Illustration: Susan Seddon Boulet My two grandmothers were very different. One was fat and cheerful, the other one thin and strict. I always wondered whom I would resemble most when I reached old age. When I was 16 my mother came to watch a theater show in which I played … Read more

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